Dignity

Being me has never been easy, especially given my fears of rejection and humiliation which often prevent me from allowing people to get close to me or letting them know what truly makes me tick.


Those two lovely qualities have led to the development of emotional armour plating and defensive behaviours which are closely related to anti-social behaviour. I'm telling you this as I have come to realize that I also have major issues when it comes to retaining my emotional, physical and spiritual dignity - when I am pushed into a corner I come out fighting and snarling and I have yet to loose the battle when this happens.

I do, however, often loose the war.

Anyone who has been present when I can not exit gracefully from a situation, where my dignity is going to stripped away wether I stand there and smile as I silently cry or slink away like a whipped dog, knows how I capable of going from victim to victor in a hearbeat.

Anyhow...

One of my presents to myself is my dignity - no one will ever take it away from me again. I will elegantly stand fast in the face of adversity - no matter what, I will be in control of the situation.

Sometimes I actually like myself :)