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The cost of coming out
I went into this knowing that sooner or later the people in my life would notice that my appearance, attiitude and mannerisms were changing - that's hardly surprising as that is one of the goals of this process. I just didn't think that it would happen so soon...
My LSGF probably knew before I did; she had the advantage of not living in denial and could see the turmoil that I was facing. Lucky her... and yes, I am being sarcastic here as she signed up for a hetero relationship and that came crashing down. Supportive, scared, hurt...
After my GP, shrink, endo and a nosy pharmacist joined the circle of knowledge I made the mistake of letting work know that I was transgendered and was taking medication. I would have been better off painting a target on my back as that's what I became - so much for being honest about it and giving them a heads up before I started puberty.
After a couple of months of an increasingly ugly environment at the job site I broke down and started crying while talking to the HR department of the company I work for - I was sobbing on the phone while I told them that I could not face work any more. I have to mention here that I was providing contracted expert services to the job site where I was working at - the gang I work for are not the bad guys. It's the others that enjoy making my life miserable.
At this point my GP listens to me - takes a good look at me - and writes a rather pointed little note. I'm changing and it's making life at work ugly...
Anyhow... I'm out of that mess for now.
So much for coming out. So much for honesty. So much for diversity.
Carly
My LSGF probably knew before I did; she had the advantage of not living in denial and could see the turmoil that I was facing. Lucky her... and yes, I am being sarcastic here as she signed up for a hetero relationship and that came crashing down. Supportive, scared, hurt...
After my GP, shrink, endo and a nosy pharmacist joined the circle of knowledge I made the mistake of letting work know that I was transgendered and was taking medication. I would have been better off painting a target on my back as that's what I became - so much for being honest about it and giving them a heads up before I started puberty.
After a couple of months of an increasingly ugly environment at the job site I broke down and started crying while talking to the HR department of the company I work for - I was sobbing on the phone while I told them that I could not face work any more. I have to mention here that I was providing contracted expert services to the job site where I was working at - the gang I work for are not the bad guys. It's the others that enjoy making my life miserable.
Pretending that a person does not exist hurts just as bad as hurtful words...
At this point my GP listens to me - takes a good look at me - and writes a rather pointed little note. I'm changing and it's making life at work ugly...
Anyhow... I'm out of that mess for now.
So much for coming out. So much for honesty. So much for diversity.
Carly